Kunoichi-no-korai

I see you looking. That cold green stare. You're envious. "She so happy! All the time. She's so perfect." "Perfect" you say? Perhaps you're not looking deep enough. Through drunken laughter and blackened lashes my pain is hiding underneath. You! You who says you're my friend, but not really. Only when it's convenient.  After all… I'm too "perfect" to know the real world. P E  R  F  E  C  T  I  O  N Can't you see? The inner me dies every night. I can't take it I can't cope. I have to stop. Why? Why can't I stop?) I try (So hard) every night. I want to be perfect. Justforyou I want to be your perfect illusion. Just for a moment. One sma

I try to forget it. (Wanting) I need to forget. (Trying) Night after night I try, and succeed. (Almost) Almost isn't good enough now is it? (of course not) Why can't you leave me alone? Isn't that the promise we made? We don't exist in the real world. I never existed in your world anyways did I? (Cause we're never really real to begin with) I've tried so hard to fix that part of me. But I can't control my dreams. No matter how hard I try. I can't live in your world. I never could. I just disillusioned myself into thinking that way. (Cause I was never really real to begin with.) Never real. Make me real! I want to be real! Not just some

Restless It was sad to see it - that sight he had watched over so many times before. On the outskirts of town, that same long satin curtain of hair could be seen, waiting. He could only sigh at her persistence. She was still waiting for him. He had given up hope a long time ago that he would come back. He had almost killed her once before, what was to say he wouldn't try again? It was true that he had given up hope to ever see his friend again, but she couldn't so she waited every night for the day he would return. "Rachel. Come on. You need to get home." He placed a hand on her shoulder as he did so every night, pulling her somewhat out of

Sedona This is how it always happens, night after night. (Darkness always suited you, didn't it?) After the sun set, you would sneak in. All my defenses would fall - Damn you. I feel my heart shatter with every sunrise; you leave again. (Then again, I couldn't expect more.) I shouldn't, anyways. I always believe your sweet nothings, (they're lies) your promises of a better life with me (only me). I lay back with thoughts in my head. You love me, right? Of course you do. I wouldn't hear you climbing through my window if you didn't. I pretend not to hear you, just the way you like. I feel the warmth of your skin when you sink onto the bed, pu

No, Of course I'm not mad. Never mad, never angry Never, Never, Never. Why do you keep crying? Can't you see I don't care? I couldn't if I wanted to, And I don't Not at all. Sob all you want. Do you think it helps? Can't you see? I am you, The apathetic you Looking back if only for a moment. Your still crying, Sobbing, But the truth is but one thing And apathetic reflection. Lost again in reality…